dark.identified.used.sorry.notsorry.totalshutdown.crossfire.lengthy.
nocooperation.dullvoices.relyonnooneagain.relyonlyonself.

crash.hide.loudworldoutside.darksafeinside.
feelingburdenish.heartstopping.createspace.badlogistics.mean.sullen.

allme.

noneofyou.

flyingfuck.crashagain.highonlife.crusade.walkalone.sleepalone.notlaughing.drowning.suffocating.ignoringfeelings.bathing.
merlinrules.heartburn.

signatureslogans.stayonyourtoes.watchyourback.peoplearetreacherous.
loonybinforsome.sullen.alone.emo.notme.you.crabsandwich.mallard.youmustbenew.

[i still remember the visceral reaction i had to hearing this song live in san jose 5 years ago. i can't explain it, but it was HUGE and overhwhelming. i can almost always use it in my cathartic work (art, etc) at any given time. i don't have anything major happening right now, but i am a bit on the sad side. something always brings me back to this one]

I threw you the obvious and you flew with it on your back.
a name in your recollection down among a million same.

difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed and passed over.
when I look right through I see you naked but oblivious.

and you don't see me.

but I threw you the obvious just to see if there's more behind the eyes of a fallen angel, eyes of a tragedy.

here I am expecting just a little bit too much from the wounded
but I see, see through it all, see through, see you.

'cause I threw you the obvious to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel, eyes of a tragedy.

oh well
oh well
apparently nothing. apparently nothing at all.

you don't
you don't
you don't see me